time flies

So I tried these new muffin tops called Vita Tops and they are AMAZING. i really was unsure because most healthy food tastes like garbage but it genuinely was good and I kind of wish I had brought 2 today. Oh well. Poor planning on my part.

I went to the gym this morning. Ever notice how when you work out real hard you are STARVING all day. personally i don't want to eat more than normal bc i feel like that defeats the purpose of the gym. I don't starve myself don't worry :) I just try and be responsible about what I eat. The pack of carrots I just ate did nothing to fix the hunger. My goodness.

There was a graduate school fair today and I have to say it scares me to know that I will be applying in only 2 short months. Wow. Where did college go? and how did high school come and go so fast. I don't know that I am ready for the real world and I am really afraid of not getting into to a PA program. I want it so much and I feel like I've spent 15 years working for something that is finally here and there's a chance that despite all my effort I won't get in. If I don't get in then what? I am not being pessimistic, but rather realistic and trying to plan.

Ever feel like you are there for others more than they are there for you? I wonder where is the line you draw to decide between being understanding and feeling like people don't treat you fairly. I struggle with this a lot I try and expect the best but I do not always succeed.

I will say all the sweet messages from my youtubers do cheer me up. You are all so nice and I thoroughly enjoy doing youtube. It makes me sad to read of others who find so much drama through youtube but I will say I think it's easily avoided just be nice, don't judge others, and do your own thing. Remember that when you started you had 0 subscribers and no matter how many you have now that doesn't make you any better than someone else. I have 110 and even if I only had 10 or if i had 1100 Id still make my videos the same way.

xoxo
Anita